Need To Reboot ! Help!
I'm deciding on a career change. Almost 4 years here in this current company. I wondered if I had been promoted already in another company after serving for 4 years. Yes, I have achieved that seniority among my peers, they do look to me for guidance when they 'really' have to :P
But, with all the experience, knowledge and networks, I still feel empty. I come to work and go home like a robot nowadays. Nobody understands this feeling. I don't feel I've achieved anything. For the sake of my fat paycheck I get every month, I don't get the satisfaction of working. It's not exactly the kind of feeling where you'd look forward to go to work the next day. My current motivation to stay here and rot myself is purely based on $$$. I know during these times, no company would want to pay me this much except here.
I wanna get out. Out of this rotting political circus. Butt kissers and actors fill up most of the upper tier of management. Incompetency is common among them. Like scavengers, they prey on the slightest mistake by their underlings and capitalizes it to catapult their existence. And like a Smartshop ad, they give you empty promises. I wish somebody out there understands. I'm 26 with so much time ahead of me. I want it to be filled with creativity, imagination, satisfaction and something you can call your own.
It's like playing defensive , boring football despite winning consistently. Sometimes, it dampens your creative playmaker's development in the team. He needs to roam free and do his own branding and authority. I have this feeling that I can achieve so much and my career life would be so much more fulfilling if I leave here now.
Come on, 4 years man. To question my loyalty would be unthinkable.
I want to quit , seriously.
I'm deciding on a career change. Almost 4 years here in this current company. I wondered if I had been promoted already in another company after serving for 4 years. Yes, I have achieved that seniority among my peers, they do look to me for guidance when they 'really' have to :P
But, with all the experience, knowledge and networks, I still feel empty. I come to work and go home like a robot nowadays. Nobody understands this feeling. I don't feel I've achieved anything. For the sake of my fat paycheck I get every month, I don't get the satisfaction of working. It's not exactly the kind of feeling where you'd look forward to go to work the next day. My current motivation to stay here and rot myself is purely based on $$$. I know during these times, no company would want to pay me this much except here.
I wanna get out. Out of this rotting political circus. Butt kissers and actors fill up most of the upper tier of management. Incompetency is common among them. Like scavengers, they prey on the slightest mistake by their underlings and capitalizes it to catapult their existence. And like a Smartshop ad, they give you empty promises. I wish somebody out there understands. I'm 26 with so much time ahead of me. I want it to be filled with creativity, imagination, satisfaction and something you can call your own.
It's like playing defensive , boring football despite winning consistently. Sometimes, it dampens your creative playmaker's development in the team. He needs to roam free and do his own branding and authority. I have this feeling that I can achieve so much and my career life would be so much more fulfilling if I leave here now.
Come on, 4 years man. To question my loyalty would be unthinkable.
I want to quit , seriously.
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