6 weird things

I've been tagged by purple and jamie. Here goes:

1) I tend to speak to myself whenever I'm watching a football game , especially with Liverpool in it. I tend to be the manager at that time.

2) I will get sore throat if I drink something with too much ice . My tonsils will start to swollen. Yet if I go on an ice cream marathon , I'll be just fine.

3) I would wake up and start screaming once in a while if somebody simply wakes me up all of a sudden. Yeah , freak-a-zoid right? (cue twilight zone theme song)

4) Its hard for me to fall asleep inside an air-conditioned room , but if you put me under a fan , I'll be checking in Dream Hotel in no time.

5) I dunno if this is considered weird , any possible sign of weight gain is only reflected on my face , not on my body. So I'd look like a Chuppa Chup , round on top but kayu lidi - like from the neck down :P

6) Try to cubit or bite my arms , I won't feel a thing . Oh or you can try plucking the hairs on my arms , I don't feel anything :) Just my arms though .

Choices

I've come to realize that one of the most significant gift a human can have which is given by God is our ability to make a choice. Choices lead you to different paths in your life. Choices can define you , destroy you , make you , break you , liberate you , satisfy you etc... In other words, you can choose what sort of condition you want to be in.

If you choose to be moody and prefer to be cranky , then that's exactly what you'll become. But if you choose to be grateful and appreciate what you have , you will tend to feel a lot better. On a personal note, I chose to be happy and grateful , but what can you do if the people around you decides to want more ? they want everything so much more that this hunger begins to consume them , blinding their sense of judgment and rationale ?

I don't know.

You try to do things in moderation without going overboard, sometimes , due to the forgiving nature of us humans , we seem to give in to the demands that are sometimes against our choice. Let's talk about temper , can we all choose not to be angry or sad ? I believe everything is a state of mind. Yes, maybe sometimes certain fates that has happened does not really give you any clear cut choices or any choice to make. Sometimes , out of love we tend to sacrifice our very own basic needs in order to make someone happy. That's a given , coz its not much of a choice , its an obligation.

I sometimes wish I can 'choose' to be more strict , bold and aggressive . In other words, I wish I can choose to be a bastard and f*&% things up once in a while . Please mind the foul words. When you become too nice , people misuse that and step on you. Will it be a good union if only one person is allowed to be upset at any particular time and the other person can't ? Is it fair ?

I don't know.

Loyalty . I see that word as just that - a word. The good old times used to put loyalty in very high regard . Yet nowadays, people tend to be disloyal when they see an outside opportunity to get what they have not been getting from a particular person / company / place etc.. No wonder you see a lot of infidelity cases , betrayals , defection etc ... Your loyalty will only go as far as your inner desires. For people who are bound with a high code of loyalty and trust , how do you think they would feel if the very entity that they are loyal to , becomes disloyal ?

Angry. Defeated. Betrayed.

I'm slightly losing grip of myself . Will there ever be a choice ?

Will I finally see harmony and victory from this raging war of anger within me?

I do think I will feel a lot better if I get what I want once in a while . I do think it would be better that I get the respect I want once in a while. I do not feel I am respected . I feel violated , not liberated . A tough balancing act is needed between the truth and the heart.

Choices , choices and more choices ... what will it be ? choose your destiny .

Til all are really really ONE .

Peace be upon you all.

Selamat Hari Raya

I wish to take this opportunity to wish everyone a Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri , Maaf Zahir dan Batin . Forgive me for all my mistakes and I wish God will forgive the sins of all my family members, loved one, friends and enemies if I have any.

Enjoy this Raya and have a great year ahead :)

Peace be upon you all ..

til all are one ....