The enemy within
How do you fight back your worst enemy when that enemy is yourself ?
Still fighting this battle . This enemy has a potential to destroy everything that I hold dear to. I sometimes realize that in order to master the battles around you , you must win the battle within yourself first and foremost. Have you ever been in a situation where you know , deep down , you are capable of doing something , yet you have this old habit of making mistakes that just spoils everything ?
I have to admit that I'm struggling with myself to get rid of bad old habits and maintaining a high self respect and dignity at the same time. I guess I've been too accommodating to everyone. I forgot about ME. I have not been fair to myself . But most of the time, if I let myself too free , there is the looming danger of being caught off guard . I was good last time because I was in control of these things. I know when to open up and be on guard. My defenses have dropped tremendously .
I've learned a new thing in life : The key to being happy is to make sure everyone get what they want , whatever YOU want , either you choose to abandon it completely or you put it aside is up to you. Freedom of thought , choice , speech is a thing of the past. There is no such thing as great , only adequate . God is not foolish to create all beings to be great . There will be nothing to learn off each other then. That's why there are varieties.
How much longer will I live in fear ? the fear of loss can be unbearable . Will fear make me a better person ? We need to take life seriously . We have to burn it into our heads that we are being evaluated all the time. Imagine that everyone is carrying a mental appraisal form to evaluate you. You must not let your guard down for a second , do not be in the comfort zone - EVER . Whatever you do must be tip-top and efficient. No matter how much of a strain it does unto you , ignore it . We need to get used to it the Pavlovian way . Turning it into a healthy habit. When things get too proper instead , don't have to blame yourself , you did everything right.
They say you learn better when you experience things , have I got a lot of lessons learned ? Sure did . It'll take everything to reach to that level I aim for . It must be done .
Please, please be careful not to get stereotyped or labeled as something you're not . Consider that before you start allowing yourself for mistakes.
Good night world . Tomorrow I'll do my best not to make mistakes . God , bless me and all my loved ones , please forgive all their sins and hopefully you bring me more inner peace...
Til all are one ......
Peace be upon you all.
How do you fight back your worst enemy when that enemy is yourself ?
Still fighting this battle . This enemy has a potential to destroy everything that I hold dear to. I sometimes realize that in order to master the battles around you , you must win the battle within yourself first and foremost. Have you ever been in a situation where you know , deep down , you are capable of doing something , yet you have this old habit of making mistakes that just spoils everything ?
I have to admit that I'm struggling with myself to get rid of bad old habits and maintaining a high self respect and dignity at the same time. I guess I've been too accommodating to everyone. I forgot about ME. I have not been fair to myself . But most of the time, if I let myself too free , there is the looming danger of being caught off guard . I was good last time because I was in control of these things. I know when to open up and be on guard. My defenses have dropped tremendously .
I've learned a new thing in life : The key to being happy is to make sure everyone get what they want , whatever YOU want , either you choose to abandon it completely or you put it aside is up to you. Freedom of thought , choice , speech is a thing of the past. There is no such thing as great , only adequate . God is not foolish to create all beings to be great . There will be nothing to learn off each other then. That's why there are varieties.
How much longer will I live in fear ? the fear of loss can be unbearable . Will fear make me a better person ? We need to take life seriously . We have to burn it into our heads that we are being evaluated all the time. Imagine that everyone is carrying a mental appraisal form to evaluate you. You must not let your guard down for a second , do not be in the comfort zone - EVER . Whatever you do must be tip-top and efficient. No matter how much of a strain it does unto you , ignore it . We need to get used to it the Pavlovian way . Turning it into a healthy habit. When things get too proper instead , don't have to blame yourself , you did everything right.
They say you learn better when you experience things , have I got a lot of lessons learned ? Sure did . It'll take everything to reach to that level I aim for . It must be done .
Please, please be careful not to get stereotyped or labeled as something you're not . Consider that before you start allowing yourself for mistakes.
Good night world . Tomorrow I'll do my best not to make mistakes . God , bless me and all my loved ones , please forgive all their sins and hopefully you bring me more inner peace...
Til all are one ......
Peace be upon you all.
Dude, you're just being hard on yourself. You always talk about the mistakes you've done. I think the first step in winning this battle is to not be so hard on yourself. You don't give yourself enough credit sometimes. Just because some people might think of you in a certain way doesn't mean you have to beat yourself up for it. You need to stand up and just go 'fuck you!'
ReplyDeleteBeing self centered is sometimes a useful weapon, when used properly. Everybody needs to be self centered at some point, not like "hey-everybody-im-more-important-than-anything-in-the-world-so-pay-attention-to-me' self centered but more like the 'I-need-to-think-whats-important-for-me' type.
Pat yourself in the back for a job well done once in a while bro, even if some might think otherwise...
'You've got the touch, you've got the power.." - Stan Bush Transformers OST
Scott Summers , biasala hehe ..
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