Song At The Moment : 'Someone To Love' by Babyface and Jon B

An old-skool ballad I love back from my pimply sekolah menengah days . Wish I had the voice to sing this . :)

[Jon]

Don't even like to think about

I don't know what I'd do without it

I only know I'll live and not be for your love

Baby you came to me

In my time of need

When I needed you, you were there for me

Baby the love from you is what got me through

It's because of you, I was able to

Give my heart again

You gave me....

1 - [Jon & Babyface]

Someone to love

Someone to touch

Someone to hold

Someone to know

Someone to love

Someone to trust

Someone to hold

Oh, someone to know

[Babyface]

I thought I'd never love again

I thought my life was over, and

I didn't wanna face or even see another day baby

Suddenly from nowhere

Baby, you appeared

You dried my tears

You cared for me

Maybe your love for me

Truly rescued me

It's because of you, I was able to

Fall in love again

You gave me someone....

[Jon]

For so long in my life

I wouldn't let love inside

But I swallowed my pride

The day you arrived

[Babyface]

And now with you by my side

Everything is all right

It's because of you, I was able to...

[Jon]

Give my heart again (girl)

Repeat 1 while:

And you gave me someone to love

And you gave me someone to love

You gave me someone to love

Someone to know

And you gave me someone to love

And you gave me someone to love

You gave me someone to love

Someone to know

Kerek-ter

They say being strong does not always mean physical strength, but the real strength lies in your character. With age comes wisdom , with knowledge comes power .

You could be the most prospective , high potential individual out there , but sometimes when you know you're good you get too cocky . You tend to make mistakes . Which is why having someone with experience beside you can guide you to greater heights.

Same goes to life . I think personally , I've endured all kinds of experiences . Some are great , some can be very bad . I've been faced with rejection , humiliation , intimidation , isolation and sometimes aggression . Those are the bad ones , but I've also experienced love , friendship , companionship and responsibilities . Somehow I think God is trying to make me learn the hard way .

I think I've learned a great deal these couple of years . I've learned that some things just can't be avoided and its not because I have bad luck . Everything happens for a reason . I have refrained myself from blaming the whole world because of my problems. Certain things were just meant to happen . I've also realized that little things go a long way .

I don't really have a stressful job . I mean whatever I go through at work stays at the office . I never brought my work back home . Maybe its the lack of rest . Sometimes the stress and the strain contributed a lot to my recurring lower back problems , making things hard for me to even bend down and tie my shoe laces . I try to get as much rest as I can .

Here I am reflecting how things have turned out for me so far . I could proudly say that I can stand on my own right now . I have a job , I pay my own never-ending bills and I could afford to have my own car . Thanx to my pact with Purple , we're slowly saving up to allow us to travel for holidays and so on. Though I can't always go on holidays all the time like the rest of my peers , at least when the time comes for me to go , I'd make full use of the opportunity . All the hard work really pays dividends , especially when you see everyone is happy . I don't mind working hard , as long as I keep everyone happy .

Despite that , as a human and as a humble man , we make mistakes along the way . Lately , its either I make a lot of costly mistakes or everyone is trying to find faults on me . There seems to be a lack of tolerance lately over my mistakes . I feel my pride as a person is being peeled off little by little by how I get treated over my mistakes nowadays . I've been working hard , maybe not hard enough . Its not a nice feeling to have when people are angry at you , all guns blazing , eyes full of rage , hatred and foul words thrown at you like rotten eggs .

They say life's experiences builds a character , what sort of character will I finally turn out to be ? After all the ups and downs , triumphs and disappointments . Will I end up being a good character ? Don't forget that being evil is a journey . Will I lean more towards the dark side or will I come out on top and achieve greatness ?

Song of the Month

Artist : Michael Buble
Title : Call Me Irresponsible

Special dedication to you :)


Call me irresponsible
Call me unreliable
Throw in undependable, too

Do my foolish alibis bore you?
Well, I'm not too clever, I
I just adore you

So, call me unpredictable
Tell me I'm impractical
Rainbows, I'm inclined to pursue

Call me irresponsible
Yes, I'm unreliable
But it's undeniably true
That I'm irresponsibly mad for you

Do my foolish alibis bore you?
Girl, I'm not too clever, I
I just adore you

Call me unpredictable
Tell me that I'm so impractical
Rainbows, I'm inclined to pursue

Go ahead call me irresponsible
Yes, I'm unreliable
But it's undeniably true
I'm irresponsibly mad for you

You know it's true
Oh, baby it's true

Anger Management

Met a psychologist friend of my dad who dropped by. He told me that I'm a very angry person just by looking at my face. He said the calm face is actually out of frustration that I can't really express my angers well. Sort of like a cannon with no arm / volcano without the furnace . I was astounded . I have to say yes I do have difficulties expressing my anger, normally I keep things inside.

He said don't always keep it inside, don't let too many angers explode inside. He said "Orang macam ni bahaya ni, kalau sekali dier meletup , susah nak berhenti" .

He asked me what I was angry about , I didn't really wanna tell him , but he understood . He said "if people can express their anger at you , why can't you ?" , I told him I don't wanna make a mess. He said "That's good, you mind tells you to be rational . Normally people with high mood swings and temperamental succumb to their feelings and all else don't register in their heads anymore. "

He gave an example, " Kalau orang moody dah marah , apa benda baik you buat sebelum ni untuk dia pun tak guna , bila dier dah marah dier lupa sekejap semua tu " .

He advised me to be more forthright and open if theres something I feel is not right. Then slowly all the anger won't be stored inside . Try to let it go slowly.

Good piece of advice . I can't say it'll be easy , I mean obviously its gonna piss some people close to me , but I'll try my best .

Do you speak-er any Engrish ?

Grammatically wrong English words used by Malaysians :

1) Thats mean
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Well if you read it carefully it would normally mean - "Hey that's mean . You should apologize " . However , some use it as - "So thats mean we all meet up at the office tonite la okay?" . Maybe they wanted to say 'that means' but often fail to distinguish this .

2) Others people
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People is plural , but not everything must have an 's' to it. eg. " Wei, don't do like that, what if others people know?"

3) Should be can
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This one is almost right , but they had to put 'can' at the end. eg. " You want it like that? should be can la."

4) Peoples
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Yep. e.g " Wahh, so many peoples here. "

5) Somestimes
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Thanx to my fren who told me this. eg. "Somestimes these things can happen."

6) 'Z' as Jet
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Eg. " How to spell L-A-Z-Y ? L-A-Jet-Y " or "My handphone number is Jiro -1-9...."

7) Dontch (Don't)
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Eg. "I dontch know what you are talking about"

Jeckyl and Hyde Dilemma

Guys, have we become wusses ?

I woke up read a few blogs and one article was taken from the States that mentioned how women have ruined men nowadays. After reading it, it got me into an 'Isaac Mendes' state of mind (in case you don't know, he's the drug junkie cum painter in HEROES) but instead of in a trance to paint , I got into a trance to write ... eyes glowing white hehe .. with my own drug - jazz

Basically it was about the fluctuating demands and incoherent needs surrounding women nowadays that have affected how men should behave . Women can never settle for one type of guy. The type of guy women wants changes from one mood to the other. So for guys who feel that they have found the 'One' and happy to be what he is as long as their partner doesn't complain can think again.

Well it all depends on each situation and environment really, some prefer us to be cold-blooded, strong and takes charge of things .. while some have been trained to be more sensitive , emotional and highly obedient . But what really attracts them ? is it the emotionless tough guy or the caring , sensible mr-nice-guy?

More often nowadays, we guys have to intelligently switch between the lines , from mr-tough guy to mr-nice guy at certain situations without letting the partner know about it. How long will this go on ? They all say its always the guys' fault ..but does the problem really lies with our male species or the other way around ? hehe