The Autumn Leaf
I'm bad. Seriously, I'm just a really bad person.
I had aspirations of having a good life . I achieved that to a certain degree, yet I didn't realise the amount of effort needed to sustain it. I would've liked all the entities in my life would move in one single orbit , moving in unison and with great balance . When every single entity goes out of orbit, you struggle to keep every single one in place. When everything goes away from you, what do you have left ? Do you think your life is worth living without those entities ?
Well I'm a human being. In essence, we make mistakes .. why? because that's what humans do . We're not perfect . But for me , I think I make too many mistakes . Too many to the extent of hating yourself for it . To the extent of you reflecting whether you should keep everything and try your best to sustain it til God knows when , or you let it all free ....
Wishful thinking indeed. Nowadays , everywhere I go , I make mistakes . A typical friend would advice "Hey , learn from your mistakes and move on" . Any other great advice ?
Making mistakes is one thing , but have we ever considered the feelings of those we make mistakes to ? How long will they have to take the crap you gave them ? There will come point where they'll get up and leave you ...
I have made that mistake boys and girls. Please, don't go down the same path as me. Don't make the mistake I did. I wished things would be better , in fact , I wish everything to be better . Sadly , the voice of reason don't always come to your ears when you needed it. So we all pay the price when we make mistakes , doesn't matter if its big or small .
I've got a thousand flaws I can list down about myself , I discover it every single day, sometimes the easy way , sometimes the hardest way . You live a life where you hope people would accept your flaws and try to work on those flaws together. Yet how many can actually accept it ? or more importantly , for how long ?
Would you risk seeing that person suffer for your stupid little mistakes at the expense for their right to be happy ? I can't .
Whenever theres someone who is good, there is always someone who is better.
And that person who is 'better' can always come and claim what the 'good' person has . Typically, we all don't like problems. Who likes problems ? we all wanna be happy right ?
But some people live better lives than others . I consider myself to be the struggling kind , who is trying to keep up and climbing up . When you align someone who has a stable life and someone like me , you will have some conflicts. You try to keep up so fiercely , sacrificing your own mind, body and soul to it .... but at the end , you disappoint . And normally a stable person wouldn't understand struggles like these , coz everything comes naturally easy. But for people like me , I have a life where other people make big mistakes , and it sends ripples to all those who are linked to it . We all get the piece of its consequences . Do I choose to get it ? no. It came to me. Is it fair that I be judged unfairly because I have to bear the problems too ? no.
If I was born in another place , clean, stable life , stable relationship , and working normally , I wouldn't be facing all these . When you have to be in tip top condition and required to be at your best mental state and body all the time , it puts a strain on you . When everything has to be in perfect timing and execution , you fail , you will pay the price .
Everyone , listen to my advice carefully . Appreciate everyone around you , love them all , never be on the comfort zone .... always stay sharp and mentally alert , always have a little bit of fear in you. The fear of losing your precious ones. It keeps you on your toes. When you slack off or spend too much time in your comfort zone like me , that's the best time mistakes will come after you . And when you make that mistake , your precious one goes away, you will start to write and give advices to other people too .
Don't be like me. Whatever you still have with you , keep it . You never know when you'd commit a mistake and they will be taken away from you ...
I'm bad. Seriously, I'm just a really bad person.
I had aspirations of having a good life . I achieved that to a certain degree, yet I didn't realise the amount of effort needed to sustain it. I would've liked all the entities in my life would move in one single orbit , moving in unison and with great balance . When every single entity goes out of orbit, you struggle to keep every single one in place. When everything goes away from you, what do you have left ? Do you think your life is worth living without those entities ?
Well I'm a human being. In essence, we make mistakes .. why? because that's what humans do . We're not perfect . But for me , I think I make too many mistakes . Too many to the extent of hating yourself for it . To the extent of you reflecting whether you should keep everything and try your best to sustain it til God knows when , or you let it all free ....
Wishful thinking indeed. Nowadays , everywhere I go , I make mistakes . A typical friend would advice "Hey , learn from your mistakes and move on" . Any other great advice ?
Making mistakes is one thing , but have we ever considered the feelings of those we make mistakes to ? How long will they have to take the crap you gave them ? There will come point where they'll get up and leave you ...
I have made that mistake boys and girls. Please, don't go down the same path as me. Don't make the mistake I did. I wished things would be better , in fact , I wish everything to be better . Sadly , the voice of reason don't always come to your ears when you needed it. So we all pay the price when we make mistakes , doesn't matter if its big or small .
I've got a thousand flaws I can list down about myself , I discover it every single day, sometimes the easy way , sometimes the hardest way . You live a life where you hope people would accept your flaws and try to work on those flaws together. Yet how many can actually accept it ? or more importantly , for how long ?
Would you risk seeing that person suffer for your stupid little mistakes at the expense for their right to be happy ? I can't .
Whenever theres someone who is good, there is always someone who is better.
And that person who is 'better' can always come and claim what the 'good' person has . Typically, we all don't like problems. Who likes problems ? we all wanna be happy right ?
But some people live better lives than others . I consider myself to be the struggling kind , who is trying to keep up and climbing up . When you align someone who has a stable life and someone like me , you will have some conflicts. You try to keep up so fiercely , sacrificing your own mind, body and soul to it .... but at the end , you disappoint . And normally a stable person wouldn't understand struggles like these , coz everything comes naturally easy. But for people like me , I have a life where other people make big mistakes , and it sends ripples to all those who are linked to it . We all get the piece of its consequences . Do I choose to get it ? no. It came to me. Is it fair that I be judged unfairly because I have to bear the problems too ? no.
If I was born in another place , clean, stable life , stable relationship , and working normally , I wouldn't be facing all these . When you have to be in tip top condition and required to be at your best mental state and body all the time , it puts a strain on you . When everything has to be in perfect timing and execution , you fail , you will pay the price .
Everyone , listen to my advice carefully . Appreciate everyone around you , love them all , never be on the comfort zone .... always stay sharp and mentally alert , always have a little bit of fear in you. The fear of losing your precious ones. It keeps you on your toes. When you slack off or spend too much time in your comfort zone like me , that's the best time mistakes will come after you . And when you make that mistake , your precious one goes away, you will start to write and give advices to other people too .
Don't be like me. Whatever you still have with you , keep it . You never know when you'd commit a mistake and they will be taken away from you ...
"Always have a little bit of fear and stay away from spending too much time in comfort zone..." I can't agree with you more on this
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