Wednesday, May 30, 2007

WORDS WOMEN USE

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FINE

This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.


FIVE MINUTES

If she is getting dressed, this is half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given 5 more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.


NOTHING

This is the calm before the storm. This means "something," and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with 'Nothing' usually end in "Fine"


GO AHEAD

This is a dare, not permission. Don't do it.


LOUD SIGH

This is not actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A "Loud Sigh" means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you over "Nothing"


THAT'S OKAY

This is one of the most dangerous statements that a woman can make to a man. "That's Okay" means that she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.


THANKS

A woman is thanking you. Do not question it or faint. Just say you're welcome.

Sunday, May 27, 2007

The Autumn Leaf

I'm bad. Seriously, I'm just a really bad person.

I had aspirations of having a good life . I achieved that to a certain degree, yet I didn't realise the amount of effort needed to sustain it. I would've liked all the entities in my life would move in one single orbit , moving in unison and with great balance . When every single entity goes out of orbit, you struggle to keep every single one in place. When everything goes away from you, what do you have left ? Do you think your life is worth living without those entities ?

Well I'm a human being. In essence, we make mistakes .. why? because that's what humans do . We're not perfect . But for me , I think I make too many mistakes . Too many to the extent of hating yourself for it . To the extent of you reflecting whether you should keep everything and try your best to sustain it til God knows when , or you let it all free ....

Wishful thinking indeed. Nowadays , everywhere I go , I make mistakes . A typical friend would advice "Hey , learn from your mistakes and move on" . Any other great advice ?

Making mistakes is one thing , but have we ever considered the feelings of those we make mistakes to ? How long will they have to take the crap you gave them ? There will come point where they'll get up and leave you ...

I have made that mistake boys and girls. Please, don't go down the same path as me. Don't make the mistake I did. I wished things would be better , in fact , I wish everything to be better . Sadly , the voice of reason don't always come to your ears when you needed it. So we all pay the price when we make mistakes , doesn't matter if its big or small .

I've got a thousand flaws I can list down about myself , I discover it every single day, sometimes the easy way , sometimes the hardest way . You live a life where you hope people would accept your flaws and try to work on those flaws together. Yet how many can actually accept it ? or more importantly , for how long ?

Would you risk seeing that person suffer for your stupid little mistakes at the expense for their right to be happy ? I can't .

Whenever theres someone who is good, there is always someone who is better.

And that person who is 'better' can always come and claim what the 'good' person has . Typically, we all don't like problems. Who likes problems ? we all wanna be happy right ?

But some people live better lives than others . I consider myself to be the struggling kind , who is trying to keep up and climbing up . When you align someone who has a stable life and someone like me , you will have some conflicts. You try to keep up so fiercely , sacrificing your own mind, body and soul to it .... but at the end , you disappoint . And normally a stable person wouldn't understand struggles like these , coz everything comes naturally easy. But for people like me , I have a life where other people make big mistakes , and it sends ripples to all those who are linked to it . We all get the piece of its consequences . Do I choose to get it ? no. It came to me. Is it fair that I be judged unfairly because I have to bear the problems too ? no.

If I was born in another place , clean, stable life , stable relationship , and working normally , I wouldn't be facing all these . When you have to be in tip top condition and required to be at your best mental state and body all the time , it puts a strain on you . When everything has to be in perfect timing and execution , you fail , you will pay the price .

Everyone , listen to my advice carefully . Appreciate everyone around you , love them all , never be on the comfort zone .... always stay sharp and mentally alert , always have a little bit of fear in you. The fear of losing your precious ones. It keeps you on your toes. When you slack off or spend too much time in your comfort zone like me , that's the best time mistakes will come after you . And when you make that mistake , your precious one goes away, you will start to write and give advices to other people too .

Don't be like me. Whatever you still have with you , keep it . You never know when you'd commit a mistake and they will be taken away from you ...


Tuesday, May 8, 2007

Spiderman , Spiderman , Friendly Neighbourhood Spiderman

I know I shouldn't be blogging right now , yet I can't help it . I need this . So many things on my shoulders , increasing everyday. I'm feeling kinda sick . Body temperatures rising , head spinning and exhausted . I kinda need to write a report for my manager right now , yet I'm out of ideas . Need to use my old motto ' Sometimes you have to go away , in order to come back '.
I dunno why so many people depend on me. I feel like I'm Peter Parker . I never ask such responsibilities , however they come to me as they please . You know , with great power , comes great responsibilities kinda thing . So I try to embrace those words . Now I feel like I'm too responsible for everything . Something like bearing all the world's problems on my shoulders.

I don't want to be an irresponsible bastard , so I try to be more responsible through a series of strategies and plans in my head . Never did I realise that its doing me more harm than good . We all wanna live a good , stable life right ? to me , a good stable life is a life with less problems on all fronts as well as spending your lifetime with the person you care about. However , sometimes the simplest can be the most difficult to achieve .

I don't like the notion 'Today is today , tomorrow is tomorrow" . I like to plan today , for a better tomorrow . I don't like problems , so I do whatever I can to minimise those problems from becoming bigger . Like stopping a zit from getting it bigger . What do you do to prevent zits ? you cleanse , tone and moisturise right ? Why do you do it ? because you wanna make sure your skin's environment is well maintained and minimises its chance of getting infected . Some zits come and go after few days , some would stay longer and leave a mark . Same goes to problems .

What do you do if you want a life with less problems ? you plan your life . Yes , I do agree that not all of my life's plan has come to fruition , but am I wrong to plan to improve its condition ?
In life , you have to be realistic . Life ain't like the movies all the time . Whenever you have the opportunity to improve and stabilise your life , you do it . Planning is one thing , but you must also take action . You can have 1001 plans on your head , but will u have the will to materialize it ?

I strive to please everyone , to make sure everyone gets what they want . I have a weakness for that . If I'm eating a nice pasta and my fren can only afford a 'roti canai' , I wanna make sure he gets to eat what I'm eating . That's my style.

I'm feeling a bit angry and sad that people close to me are suffering because of me and my responsibilities . Like Peter Parker and Mary Jane . Despite the many adversities and super powers , Spiderman is still human like all of us and Mary Jane represents that link to his humanity which is his undying love towards her . Without that link , he will lose his focus and turn slowly into the dark side . He may not be able to express his love to her like the rest or be there all the time , but he just hopes that she would one day understand that if there ever was a person who come to her rescue with his last breath , it would be him .

Peace.
ASTRO Kreatif Club's Treasure Hunt 2007

Guess what , I participated in the event above and my team got 3RD PLACE !! out of 54 teams . Nehh , not much of an achievement kan .. :P . Apalah sangat 3RD PLACE .

I have to say this year it was a fairly balanced occassion . Clues were challenging . Very competitive teams . I'm beginning to get addicted to this whole treasure hunt thingy. Last year we only made it to 30th place , this year was a huge leap . I guess everyone's IQ was on a good level this year hehe. Each of us got a handphone each and an RM500 slimming voucher. Not that I need slimming ( well, maybe my chubby face ) , but hey , better than nothing . The prizes were the only letdown this year in my opinion . However they more than compensated that by giving us rooms at Awana Kijal Terengganu . The rooms were excellent , facilities were good , all the staffs were very friendly and service was great.

Each team is made up of a 'four-man cell'. A navigator , a driver , a puzzle solver and a runner . I was the puzzle solver . And believe me , it was not easy . Luckily based on my experience last year , I kinda got the hang of how they prepare the questions and clues . For first timers , its an eye opener .

Really enjoyed my time there. I wanna join this event every year !

Peace.