The Mind Lounge

Don't Sleep Too Much During The Day

First few years , things were going great . Until she started being distant . Never calls anymore , never tells me things . Never asks me out , stopped making me gifts . I felt something different , something was wrong . There were no signs of affection anymore , what I saw was a look of disgust and boredom . So I finally gather up the courage to finally ask - "What's wrong ?" . What I heard thereafter shocked me . She flat out replied with a slight grin on her face - "I've met someone else".. I started to feel a throbbing pain in my heart , my knees were too weak to hold me up .

I fell kneeling to the ground , helpless and hurt . What I felt afterwards were tears flowing down my eyes .. I can't seem to utter any words . She just stood there and grinned ..

And then I realised that it was a dream . But there were tears from my eyes . I actually cried in my sleep ! I looked up to my silver IKEA wall clock and it read 1:30pm if I'm not mistaken . I can still feel the pain . I called her up immediately telling her the whole ordeal , apologizing .

Well it didn't end there . I felt sleepy again and fell asleep . Never trust the snooze button , you'll end up sleeping more than awake!

Then , I dreamt it again .

This time things get more intense . I confronted the guy . Rugged , young and has a bad boy look to it . I can't really tell what race he was , but he was fair-skinned . I went up to him at a parking lot and asked for a man-to-man talk . Being the diplomatic person I am , I felt that was the best way to settle things . His rude behavior made me wonder what does she see in him . He told me intimate details ( showing me pictures of them together on his cellphone and video clips ) and how frustrated she was at me . Couldn't stand hearing it any longer , I just snapped ! . I punched his Adam's apple so hard he couldn't even talk or breath . He was choking . Then I saw a car coming by real fast . I grabbed his head and swung it into the car's path . The car knocked his head . Blood was all over the floor . Talk about being diplomatic ! I actually killed the guy . I took his handphone as evidence for me to confront her later on .

Next thing I know I was at a gathering . She was there . I assume we came together . After few socialising sessions , I went up to her . All I can remember was , I said "Thank You so much for this .." , I gave her a peck on those rosy cheeks and then I gave her his handphone . She didn't react , she was stunned . I walked away , holding it together not to cry again .

And afterwards I was in a different scene . She called and asked me why am I not taking her out today as promised , she acted as if nothing happened after the handphone incident . I said "After all this , you still can think of those things ? " . " You're having an affair with someone aren't you ?" , I asked . She said "(with a slight giggle) I can't tell you that , it's nothing , no one " .

After that I was at a counter with a telephone placed on it . Suddenly the old man at the bar told me "She's definitely seeing another guy , this guy goes by the nickname 'Scamper' . He works right next door " . Like as if he knows what I was looking for . So I went next door to look for this 'Scamper' dude . Who the hell would use 'Scamper' as a nickname anyways ? sounded so Mat Rempit . So there he was , dark-skinned , looks older , same height as me . I thinks he's Indian , almost like a mamak .

I went up to him and asked , "Are you Scamper?" . He said , "Yes Sir , what can I do for you ?" . Judging by the greet , I guess he's a customer service officer . "Can I talk to you in private ?" I asked . He said "Sure". Then this other guy tagged along . Buck-toothed , grinning all the way following us . "Do you mind ? we don't want to make a mess here do we ? I'll be careful of your buck tooth if I were you" I said , with a stern , threatening voice . Scamper gave a nod to his buck toothed friend and later he left us alone .

I went straight to the point and asked " How long have you guys known each other ? " , while showing him a picture of her hugging me that I always carry in my wallet . Those were during happier times . " (started counting with his fingers) I think about 2 , 3 years ..maybe 4 " he replied . Then I probed further and asked " So how are things between the two of you ? you both like each other ? " . He coyly replied "yeah , I guess" . Not believing what I just heard , I had to be sure .. so I asked him again "You mean she confessed that she likes you and you told her you like her ? " He said "yes" without hesitation .

I didn't know what to ask afterwards . I shook hands with him and walked away . I thought that just explains it all . I broke down . Crying again . This time more intensely . Over and over again .

Until I realised that it was dream again when a co-worker called me up from the office . That was when I realised the time was 3:30pm . That was actually a dream . My face , wet again from the tears . Woke up and told myself try not to sleep during the day in the fasting month . Ishh ! In fact I'm still feeling angry . I don't know whether am I angry at myself or something else .

To make things more coincidental , I turned on my PC and opened up my browser . To my astonishment , there were few topics on AskMen.com (my default page) that said :

"What does a woman consider cheating ?"

"Emotional or Sexual Cheating : Which is worse ?"

"Top 10 signs you're about to cheat"

I was like whoa! .. talk about coincidence man . Hehe . Scary right ?

But rest assured , I am generally happy and theres nothing wrong . Not as if I chose what to dream right ?

I hope I won't get those kind of dreams again . Being betrayed hurts . Ouch ! :)

Now I'll just get myself ready to buka puasa and carry on with my life .

Selamat Berpuasa !

Don't sleep too much daytime k hehe .

Peace be upon you .