Smile :)
Do you think certain negative things you encounter in your life can be swept away just by a smile ? I definitely wish it could . You try to smile to the people around you , your loved ones , family . No one really knows that sometimes a smile can be considered as a mask . A mask that covers how you truly feel , what you are going through etc ..
You try to act tough , strong , responsible ... but everyday seems like a battlefield of emotions inside of you . A lots of things you wish you could've changed , some words you wish you didn't say , some important information you wish you'd remember , some actions you wish should've or shouldn't have taken ... and because you don't want to be a beacon of problems among your friends , loved ones and family ... you hide this aspect of yours ... you smile .
You try to be cheerful .. hoping it would help ease the feeling . I guess the core requirement of being me is patience . God knows what happens if I don't have that in abundance with me . I think I'd be a very hot headed person and the most hated man around . Sometimes I wish I could be a little bit ruthless ... it gets things done sometimes .
I wish I could be the best companion , friend , son , brother . I wish I could remember everything , always know what's going on around me . I wish I could be able to do things just at the right time coz most of the time , 'right timing' doesn't happen to me all the time . I wish I could be there just at the right time like Superman ... but I don't have his senses , speed , strength .. nor do I have the ability to read minds . I'm just plain human . I make mistakes , I have flaws .
However , I try not to stay like that . I try to forget my flaws as a human and try my best to be what I should be . I try to fix things . Yes , of course its like a hit-and-miss sometimes , but the best about being human is , you learn and you grow from experiences . I don't know whether I have done enough to change things around me , maybe yes , maybe not . I don't know if I have been good or bad . Here I am standing alone trying to figure out whether my existence have made a difference to this demanding world we live in .
As humans , we fear things . Fear will always be around us as a reminder for us to be careful . Like an alarm . Yes , I fear too . I fear a lot of things . Besides God , what I fear the most as a human being is the fear of losing the people you love and care about . My alarm starts ringing when I sense something is trying to take something I care about from me . You sometimes behave irrationally , acting weird , saying ridiculous things ..you panic . What do you do to hide it ? .. you smile . All you can do deep down is pray that it will go away .
I'm not the best person there is out there and I am definitely far from perfect . I don't consider myself perfect if I can't even remember important things , do the right things , be at the right places , knowing how everything feels like etc ...
I guess I have not been the best of companion , friend , son , colleague , human lately . This is just one of those moments you know ... you talk crap . Maybe I set the bar too high for myself this time , I don't know ...
*readers (if any) , please ignore wht this guy is writing about .. he's in his crappy little zone right now ... he's perfectly alrite *
You try to act tough , strong , responsible ... but everyday seems like a battlefield of emotions inside of you . A lots of things you wish you could've changed , some words you wish you didn't say , some important information you wish you'd remember , some actions you wish should've or shouldn't have taken ... and because you don't want to be a beacon of problems among your friends , loved ones and family ... you hide this aspect of yours ... you smile .
You try to be cheerful .. hoping it would help ease the feeling . I guess the core requirement of being me is patience . God knows what happens if I don't have that in abundance with me . I think I'd be a very hot headed person and the most hated man around . Sometimes I wish I could be a little bit ruthless ... it gets things done sometimes .
I wish I could be the best companion , friend , son , brother . I wish I could remember everything , always know what's going on around me . I wish I could be able to do things just at the right time coz most of the time , 'right timing' doesn't happen to me all the time . I wish I could be there just at the right time like Superman ... but I don't have his senses , speed , strength .. nor do I have the ability to read minds . I'm just plain human . I make mistakes , I have flaws .
However , I try not to stay like that . I try to forget my flaws as a human and try my best to be what I should be . I try to fix things . Yes , of course its like a hit-and-miss sometimes , but the best about being human is , you learn and you grow from experiences . I don't know whether I have done enough to change things around me , maybe yes , maybe not . I don't know if I have been good or bad . Here I am standing alone trying to figure out whether my existence have made a difference to this demanding world we live in .
As humans , we fear things . Fear will always be around us as a reminder for us to be careful . Like an alarm . Yes , I fear too . I fear a lot of things . Besides God , what I fear the most as a human being is the fear of losing the people you love and care about . My alarm starts ringing when I sense something is trying to take something I care about from me . You sometimes behave irrationally , acting weird , saying ridiculous things ..you panic . What do you do to hide it ? .. you smile . All you can do deep down is pray that it will go away .
I'm not the best person there is out there and I am definitely far from perfect . I don't consider myself perfect if I can't even remember important things , do the right things , be at the right places , knowing how everything feels like etc ...
I guess I have not been the best of companion , friend , son , colleague , human lately . This is just one of those moments you know ... you talk crap . Maybe I set the bar too high for myself this time , I don't know ...
*readers (if any) , please ignore wht this guy is writing about .. he's in his crappy little zone right now ... he's perfectly alrite *
Be yourself. You'll do fine. =)
ReplyDeletethat's why my favourite song is by judy garland
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Smile, though your heart is aching,
Smile even though its breaking,
When there are clouds in the sky you'll get by,
If you smile through your fear and sorrows,
Smile, and there will be tomorrow,
You'll see the sun come shining through If you,
Light up your face with gladness,
Hide every trace of sadness,
Although a tear may be ever so near,
That's the time you must keep on trying,
Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worth while,
If you just, smile.