Wednesday, July 5, 2006

When life decides to balance things up

Have you ever had a really bad day where everything is wrong and the more you try to fix it , it gets worse ? A day where everything is a critical mistake and you have people cornering you , scolding you like nobody's business ?

At the end of the day , you felt so alone , unable to react to it .. feeling so helpless . You don't know who is willing to help you or lend you support .

Well I'm experiencing that . I'm feeling so empty at the moment . I feel like I've been put on the spot in the middle of a huge desert with firing squads surrounding me . No one hears you , no one knows , no one understands . You're struggling to find that guidance to get you out of it . Yet you're alone .

What a bad day .. what a bad day .. I'm so alone . Just felt like saying sorry to everyone .

Have you ever had a dream .. then suddenly you end up crying in your sleep ? I'm waking up with tears in my eyes .. real tears ! these past few days . I can't remember when was the last time I cried ... 5 , 6 years ago ?

I dunno .. I'm lost for words .. I hate to be like this ..

The last thing I wanna be is being overdramatic .. its not me .. THIS is not me ...

I'm so alone .. so invisible .. so hollow

3 comments:

  1. aaaawww dato' i akan arrange kan satu trip cuti ke star cruiseship? dato' mahu ke? hehe. dude, anytime u need to talk, sally ada.

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  2. hehe .. its cool naz , mand . everything is settled and crystal clear . I'm good :) .

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