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The Ultimate Worrier

I came up with that title hehe..

Neh I'm not here to talk bad or diss anyone out there. Just trying to express my worries over those whom I feel needs to look at life a little bit more seriously. When I see youngsters or peers alike nowadays, I see that there this growing trend of studying overseas just for the sake of being there. Sort of to say, "hey, I studied overseas too " . Well you can roughly guess why they're there in the first place by browsing through their pictures on friendster, myspace or facebook and 101 other vanity induced sites to post your slimmest face online. You know, the pose that gives the impression that you're sucking a thick milkshake in one go ? or maybe the Zoolander pose - Blue Steel hehe ,.. you get my drift ?

And almost 80% of the pics are taken in clubs ? and its being constantly updated on a weekly basis ? Got study or not ?

Whether or not you do well is another story. As long as you bring that piece of paper with the university seal and your name on it. Hey its cool to socialize or hangout . I do that too. Maybe not as often , but I still do.

The point I'm trying to say is , why waste your parents' money like that ?

Maybe some of them have everything set for them when they graduate . But what happens to those who don't know what they wanna do ? instead of taking things day by day and partying all nite , why don't we take a breather and ask ourselves " hey , what am I gonna do later?"

We must all realize that as we get older , there will be sudden change of lifestyles and priorities. I have made certain friends of mine upset just because I declined to do things that we considered 'ok' when I was in college. Unfortunately not many of them managed to grasp that concept.

I come from humble and simple surroundings , for me to get things that I want , I need to work extra hard for it . Unlike the majority of those around me. Maybe its ok for them to waste $$ on certain things and expect the parents to make up for their loss.

I'm not preaching everyone to stop partying and enjoy life. You all have that right, by all means party on :) . I'm just saying , to people who know me , that play time for me has to slashed in half . Simply because I've got things to achieve and important things to take care of . I just want out of your activities list man .

Everybody wants a good life , what are we doing to achieve it ?


Til all are one ...

Peace be upon you..

Phuket

I havn't blogged about Phuket yet right ? well I thought I could give a visual on how things were during our stay.

The view from above . We took Air Asia by the way . Never have I seen the food I eat from local grocery stores like Ribena and Maggi could be priced at such high prices. I rather get a McD !

The flight took us about an hour and 15minutes . We booked a room in this 4-star hotel called 'Burasari' - located right smack in the middle of Patong Beach town area and walking distance to the night market there . When we got there, a hotel limo was waiting for us. Or supposed to..

The limo arrived more than an hour late due to some confusion with the arrival time that we have provided them with. But the new Toyota Camry that picked us up made me forget bout it coz it was such a comfortable car.

We arrived and checked in and here's the view of the hotel :

The swimming pool was nothing out of the ordinary but it was still fun to swim in. I finally managed to swim! Thanx to my hot female instructor ;P .

The garden coffee house :

This was where we had our complimentary breakfast . This place was called LLoyd's Brasserie . It was named after the this chef dude who appeared a lot on TV . Well the main dishes were all his creations.

and here's the best part , the room :

the idea of having a toilet with a window overlooking the bedroom disturbed me at first, coz you don't wanna be making unpleasant noises when you're doing your 'investments' right ? hehe .. by the way , the brown bag's complimentary , you can take it wherever you want . Mini Bars are free of charge as well as daily complimentary fruits .

huge bed , 3 times bigger than mine :P

and even the hotel toilet looked nice :

I felt so sayang use the toilet coz it was too clean :P

We shopped a lot at the night markets . I didn't do all the prices negos , I let the missus do the talking . I just pay hehe .. Seriously man , I can't even bargain with a kid . I'm lousy at it. And we also went to this famous shopping center called 'Jung Ceylon' , about 20mins walk from our hotel :

Nothing much here except I bought a Fossil watch coz there was a Fossil sale! so there goes half of my budget already :P Got myself a Liverpool European Away Kit for RM35 .

Despite our battle to suppress the evil lure of chocolates , we finally succumbed to the forces of the dark side here :

how can you not be seduced by the dark side when it looked this good :

it was even cocky enough to say this :

Unfortunately we don't have that in Malaysia. Besides that , we had massages , Thai style. And somebody got her nails done :

My lower back heeled after the session and how can it not heal , especially when your being twisted here and there like a gymnast with sounds of bones crackling.

Finally , the beach :

Well the beach in my opinion , is nothing to shout about . I think our very own Redang or Perhentian would look so much better.

Overall, I have to say it was something different to what we have experienced before , especially in terms of culture and food . Looking forward for a second visit next year ;). All this would not be possible if my purple didn't found the Burasari website . Thank you for coming up with a marvelous idea . Appreciate all the time we had there :) .

That's all for now, need to shower and get on to the thesis paper I was supposed to help :)

Til all are one .......


Peace be upon you all ....

The enemy within

How do you fight back your worst enemy when that enemy is yourself ?

Still fighting this battle . This enemy has a potential to destroy everything that I hold dear to. I sometimes realize that in order to master the battles around you , you must win the battle within yourself first and foremost. Have you ever been in a situation where you know , deep down , you are capable of doing something , yet you have this old habit of making mistakes that just spoils everything ?

I have to admit that I'm struggling with myself to get rid of bad old habits and maintaining a high self respect and dignity at the same time. I guess I've been too accommodating to everyone. I forgot about ME. I have not been fair to myself . But most of the time, if I let myself too free , there is the looming danger of being caught off guard . I was good last time because I was in control of these things. I know when to open up and be on guard. My defenses have dropped tremendously .

I've learned a new thing in life : The key to being happy is to make sure everyone get what they want , whatever YOU want , either you choose to abandon it completely or you put it aside is up to you. Freedom of thought , choice , speech is a thing of the past. There is no such thing as great , only adequate . God is not foolish to create all beings to be great . There will be nothing to learn off each other then. That's why there are varieties.

How much longer will I live in fear ? the fear of loss can be unbearable . Will fear make me a better person ? We need to take life seriously . We have to burn it into our heads that we are being evaluated all the time. Imagine that everyone is carrying a mental appraisal form to evaluate you. You must not let your guard down for a second , do not be in the comfort zone - EVER . Whatever you do must be tip-top and efficient. No matter how much of a strain it does unto you , ignore it . We need to get used to it the Pavlovian way . Turning it into a healthy habit. When things get too proper instead , don't have to blame yourself , you did everything right.

They say you learn better when you experience things , have I got a lot of lessons learned ? Sure did . It'll take everything to reach to that level I aim for . It must be done .

Please, please be careful not to get stereotyped or labeled as something you're not . Consider that before you start allowing yourself for mistakes.

Good night world . Tomorrow I'll do my best not to make mistakes . God , bless me and all my loved ones , please forgive all their sins and hopefully you bring me more inner peace...

Til all are one ......

Peace be upon you all.