Missing the scent of a flower

Went to Midvalley to meet up some old officemates back in KGC . Can't help but feeling nostalgic about it. Nostalgic in a sense that I've always been here with someone special , and had great times to top it all off . Yet today , I was alone . Eating at Chilli's reminded me of that craving for the bottomless nachos which we never really had the chance to eat . Walking by Baskin robbins reminds me of the times when we'd queue up and carrying the 2 plastic water cups around looking for a place to taste the heavenly ice cream . I know it was too sweet .

Walking by all the shops like MNG ..etc.. made me wished I could play fashion consultant for a while , eventhough my consultation was never really needed , yet it feels good . Not to mention the Levi's limited edition T's on display , worn by the more masquline physique of the mannequin . I asked myself few times why I made myself alone here . Standing in front of GSC reminds me of the times where there would be endless debates on which movie is the best to watch , but at the end , we settled for a Thai movie instead like always .

Cosmic Bowl . Hmm Fun Fun Fun . Many crazy deals were made there , still few debts still unpaid .. the sound of people bashing the buttons of Bishi Bashi next to Cosmic Bowl made me wanna challenge them , see who bashes the fastest . I wonder if anyone else were as good to finish the game in one night . After me and friends parted ways , I was solo . Walking down , further down . Passed by Lovely Lace and that dancing doll doing her thang at the press of a button . Sony Walkman phone , yes that dream still remains .

These arms , though not as built or buff like other guys , felt different. Felt light . There's also that shop where their milkshake actually have ice cubes inside . But there was shaven ice , Honey Dew flavour , a favourite . I parked the car underground . As I walked , the smell of the herbal eggs seemed irresistible , "someone would've definitely bought it" , I thought . The bakery , the chocolates , the many different tarts , I passed by .. with a light smile . Manhattan Fish Market , a sacred place . Full of memories .

As I got to the carpark , I remember when there would be arguments where the car is , although sometimes I acted blur just for the thrill of it .. it was fun . But on that day , none of those feeling were there . I was alone . Empty . I miss everything .

Most importantly , I miss the scent and presence of a certain flower ........

My Wedding Experience

Just got back from my cousin's wedding. I didn't know my cousin is marrying one of CLEO's Most Eligible Bachelors. Only from the visual slideshow they provided did I knew it. JW Marriott does provide one of the best ballrooms in KL I have to say . I think it was overall a simple yet elegant affair throughout the night. With my cousin's Jazz band performing in the background , added a touch of class with almost everyone dressed in suits . For the first time , I get to 'sembah' the Agung man . I know he's still human like all of us , but I've never 'sembah' an Agung before . So it was quite a memorable moment .

I think there were more than 20 Tan Sri's on the list based from the list , and other VIPs . For those who are into hot Mak Datins , well theres plenty to choose from . Those with more 'normal' tastes , there were the Mak Datins daughters . This was a formal wedding , which is the first time I see 3 different spoons and forks . Boy the meals made me full. I mean , the finale dessert was brownies and a vanila ice cream .. with nuts . For the first time , I couldn't finish a brownie .

I guess I was feeling a bit out of place . They all only know me by 'Emcee tu punya adik' , not my name . Obviously being the very rare 24 year olds in the family , you don't really get much attention . Not that I mind , but it can be a bit lonely when you're at weddings . Usual topic of conversation would be ' Sekarang belajar lagi ?' 'Oh kerja , kerja kat mana ?' 'Kenapa bila hujan Astro tak nampak? (this was the most famous question I get the entire night) ' bla bla ..

One of the highlights was when my Uncle Mus ( cousin's dad ) said one 'ayat power' during his speech - " I've been married for 69 years and I'll be 70 next year . Next year I would like to remarry my wife Sharifah ( my Dad's sister ) once again . " .... cue audience "Aww....." followed by applause . I mean , not only it was simple , from a straight guy's perspective , I think that line rocked ! Hit me right deep inside . Wish I could do that someday ...

The wedding ended with photo sessions on the pelamin and the usual rounds of 'Sekarang belajar lagi?' 'Oh kerja, kerja kat mana?' 'Kenapa ...' sigh you know la kan :P ..

A great wedding.

Eye of the Storm



Some things you have to go through it yourself. Nobody understands .

The Great Juggler


10th February 2007 , 08:40am .

The day and time where the great juggler failed to put on a good show , thus failing everyone. May he find solace in the company of the person who knows him best - himself. Pray that one day he may find his true worth and purpose in this unjust world ...

Sands of Time
( ..... no, not the Prince of Persia videogame , just thought it would make a cool title header :P )

I was browsing through random things on the net , from 'How To Land Your Dream Job' to '99 Most Desirable Celebs' to 'Hillary Duff likes to date ' bla bla ... Yes, I don't see how all that adds up to my current psyche but it was 'random' :P ..anyways , I have to say a lot has changed .

Change can be good , sometimes can be bad . Everything changes one way or another. A bit closer to reality , I changed . People and things around me changed . I used to be sloppy and out-of-sorts , but I guess I changed . At least I shave this hairy face more often than I used to nowadays , keeping myself cleaner .

I got few things I wanna blog about , yet I'm unable to channel which ones yet . Most of the time , it was more of from-the-gut thing and occassional serious discussions with purple and some close friends or family that inspires me . Expect a couple of posts here soon , as I recollect and rechannel my 'rhythm' back .

Back to the topic of change , change needs a friend called time to be effective . Without time , change will not be possible . Certain changes require different periods of time to take effect , while some can happen almost instantly . When you force upon something to change sooner than it actually should , you will disrupt the natural transition of it . The change might be premature or incomplete .

For us humans , we need two things to help us cope with change from time to time : patience and understanding . Two very delicate and abstract elements that can be very rare or come in abundance . Be patient over things you want to change and understand why that change takes place or why certain changes require more time than usual .

Personally , I think if we don't have those two elements within us , then it will be hard for us to grow and make anything happen for us . We might not be able to adapt to it so well . Be it a change of profession , residence , study ..whatever . So before you yourself start to change or you want to change something or someone , think carefully . Search yourself for the two elements and bear in mind its consequences . Like what Merovingian said in The Matrix " When there is cause there is consequence ... *sips on his cocktail* " .

Changing how an object looks like can be easier than changing how a person should behave . Objects don't have their own minds . Humans do . He / she must slowly adjust to the changing environment and it does not happen in a heartbeat . You cannot plant some seeds on the ground and expect it to grow few metres tall in days right ?

One change affects the other , will you be ready for it ?